I started drafting my thesis in bed, on my mobile phone, typing it into my Apple Notes app with two thumbs as if I was sending a long text message or an email to someone.
The blank page feels less intimidating on a phone screen. And 36,000 words seems easier to achieve when the first 1,000 has been written. That 1,000 in turn becomes easier when the first 100 has been put on the page.
In Biology, we learn about positive feedback loops — when a product of a reaction leads to an increase in the reaction. I sometimes like to think about writing in these terms.
If I write, the words written make it easier for more writing to happen.
It’s a heartening way to think about the writing process — the more I write, the more I can write. This gives me the motivation to keep writing… something I’ll admit I neglected in 2020.
It’s tough to write when all you want to do is curl up into a ball and watch TV to drown your feelings.
But 2021 is another year and since it seems like things aren’t getting any better, the only thing I can do is bite the bullet and get shit done.